My first love

I feel in love with a boy who broke my heart then moved to tauranga. I haven't seen him for the longest time but I still think about him sometimes. He left when his family moved and he left a lot of his friends behind. They talk about him fondly and whenever they do it brings me to tears. They are close to him and have lots of great memories of him, but I have nothing left but a few pictures and a constant reminder.

I don't think he even knows i love him. He knew I had a crush but I doubt he thought it ran deeper than that. When he left i cried more than I have ever cried in my life but it still didn't help. I couldn't stand to be near his friends as they made me think of him. I miss him now more than ever and he has probably forgotten all about me. That is the way of the world.

It is a big risk putting this out on the web because I know that there is every chance of his friends seeing it and then he will be told to read it as well. I never told him openly I liked him because to him I was just a kid and I still am. the way I see it though is that if he finds out at least he isn't close enough to me to hurt me anymore. If you are ready this though, I just want you to know that i am sorry for everything I did to upset you and that I wish I had been smart enough to fall for someone in my own league. I guess it is too late now.